I'm feeling rather confused now.
what will happen tmr?
it seems that i'm supposed to do something.
i would have thought of loads of stuffs and
be so excited that i won't be able to get to sleep.

but i've changed.
did everything that happened made me grow?
it may have made me start living
by myself,
it also made me live
as myself and
for myself.

or is it just because that i can't find the courage.
the courage to see u and
remind me of everthing that happened.
it's just a total nightmare to me.
i don't want to return to the past.

there may be times when i feel lonely.
there may be times when i admire others.
but i feel that i'm happier now
and i want to continue this way.

i'm just very tired.

i don't need someone to dry my tears
cos i've learnt how to.
i am mean.
i am whatever u say.
but u'll never know how i felt.

i just wana be ur friend.
and i need some time to overcome myself
before i can face u.
hope u'll have a happy birthday.

sigh.
maybe i should stop posting sad posts that makes me cry.

anyway,
movie for the week is
Intimate Confession of A Chinese Courtesan
it's uncensored so felt rather uneasy during some scenes.
hmm. still not bad.
and the lecturer is good!
it actually makes me look forward for elective.
:)
11:41 PM

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